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June 08 Recently, i work as a English teacher teching four 5-year olds. the job is much tougher than i've expected. of course, kids are cut, lovable and sometimes naughty. Amy is my favorite student. she is aggresive, and has a sense of honor. well, we have a competition at the end of each class, if she fails to get the first place, she will be very sad , sometimes even cry out. for the first few times, she had always been the winner, however, she failed one tme after that, she was so sad that she'd made up her mind to review and preview before each class, which lead her to her progress. Apple is another cute girl, she has a round face, that'a why they name her apple. i guss.she is squeamish, but smart as well. and she has always been a strong competitor of Amy, cause they often fight for No.1. Julia is a German-Chinese mixed blood child. judging from her appearance,t's hard to tell the difference from native German . just like a doll, very lovable. Angela is a peaceful, well-behaved child. she's not quick to react when i ask questions, and not active as others, but she is willing to learn.
teaching those kid recalls the memory of my childhood.sweet and nice moment occurs in front of me again and again. although life is totally different dozens years ago, but those are the memory i would cheish, also , together with them, we add colors to each other's life. January 31 on holidayduring the time i was preparing for the final exam, i eagerly anticipated the winter vacation. and i always have a good plan in my mind. well, it does come now, why i feel so empty? obviously, because i am no longer under the pressure that exam brought to me(plus, during the exam i always thought even if i fail in the exam, it would be no big deal. but my friend reminded me that failing in the exam would makes me lose face, that' what brought me a little pressure). now, everyday, i repeat the same schedule---- get up, find something to eat, watch on-line programme, (plus,some of them i've watched more then three times)... go to bed. i know i am sort of wasting time. bur i just can't get myself controlled.
gradually, i came to realize that sometimes, we do need some stress, that what makes you work more effiently. and once you lost a sense of fulfillment, you can no longer find the true meaning of life even if you're a millionaire.
a good plan for your life, a sense of responsiblity, and a buleprint of your future is right in front of you. Can't you see it? January 28 a terrible feeling comes againin high school, i used to worry about mathe, as i am not a intelligent girl, so mathe has always been my greatest problem. now i've entered the university, and one of the fortunatest thing for me is i no longer need to worry about it cause my major belongs to liberal arts. i thought i would have no diffiulty passing the exam of any curricula , but back to the reality, terrible feeling occurs to me once again ---- the Deusch. it is almost a night mare to me.
talking about it, i have a lot to say. you know why i came to this university, it is because of this major ,and i've been longing for it for a long time,but unfortunately i failed to get this major. i was really disappointed at that time, complianing God is not fair to me. But now i shoud say ,thank God, he did me a favor.
this semster, we Deusch(German) class as a second language class. at first, i was determined to work hard at it, well, my plan broke after the first class. the teacher was not so good as i expected, for her voice was so low and i don't think she got the right pronunciation.(plus, i am a language learner who pays much attention to the pronunciation) that's why i gradually lost interst in it. and after that i cut class, and never finshed homework that she assign to us. with the time passing, i can no longer keep up with my classmates. but i don't care, who cares?
finally , here came the exam, in this case, i was in great troubel. althought some of my friends offered me much help. but it's far from meeting demands. so i got refreshed and started learning German totally by myself. but i am kind of lazy, so i didn't work very hard until the last minute. i burned the midnight oil, but it didn't work.
i totally at loss when i got the test paper, well ,as a saying goes" no pains, no gain" . it was until that time i feel regretful. and as another saying goes "it's no using crying over the spilt milk".
now i am waiting for the results, all i can do is hope for the best and prepare for the worst. God bless me! Oh, it isit suddenly occurs to me that i have a space myself. oh, it's so amazing. cause i have accomsed to read the diaries of my freides,and it of great fun. my friend asked me why not creat one myself , well , it's a good idea and i ready have one. my friends say i am a cynical girl , maybe just because i have great hared in Japanese, so sometimes i just feel a little scared to write someting so extrame that causes trouble. here i am trying to write some the true feelings of my mind. 我昨天竟然碰到小学同学,她认出了.唉, 这个曾经有点野蛮的小丫头如今已是个温文而雅的女生.周围的没个人都在变,往理想的方面即使自己不喜欢.追求所谓的"美".我还是十几年前的我,一个不懂人情世故的我.因为真才会美 June 12 喜里糊涂喜里糊涂过了一年又一年,忽然有一天有人问我的人生目标。 我不得而知。或许是顺其自然吧。我没有什么雄心壮志,不知道这是好还是坏——不都说“不想当将军的士兵不是好士兵吗”?反正我也不会改变拉。
古语有云“顺天意” ,又有命中注定之说。儿时的我向来是唯物者。后来明白终究难以心想事成。于是有一颗平静的心去看待世界, 发现原来世界更美了。 May 31 无为很喜欢“无为”这个词 以为这大概就是一种超脱的境界吧。身边有太多的人为一些或大或小的事 拼尽浑身力气 结果如何?成功者固然欣喜 失败者陷入的又将是怎样的困窘
无为是一种生活态度 与世无争并不等于退缩 只是比当局者有一双更明亮的眼睛观察着一切
也许,我会在我的小世界中度过一生 也许我不会经历大风大浪 小小的喜悦就足以使我满足 |
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